There is an animal named elk in my hometown, also named milus, while speaking of milus with others each time, I have a kind of small pride to overflow and cherish with joy, their exist made my hometown prosper specially. Frequently, I've been thinking, what do I mean to my hometown or to my parents, a hope? a burden? or a milu?

I am a person feeling self-humiliation very much, each time when the class holds the activity and lets us appear on the stage and make a speech, I always feel baffled and tense and uneasy, will forget the speech word that oneself has decided in advance at platform, gaze around, finish one's own speech totteringly, then dart and step down from the stage. Having reached this time each time, repent, accuse and attack like tidewater. I will tell oneself " needn't be repentant once of once! Others are all only people, ordinary person is not any dreadful monsters, you speak loudly, they will neither will laugh at you take you, nor! " But no matter how many times self-suggestion are, I will still be timid while appearing on the stage next time, will feel guilty, will go round and begin again like this, I become a edge person in the class, a person often forgotten by the class.

Mr. Lu Xun has said that does not " break out in silence and die in silence " ,In the university in time flies to pass, I feel I suffocates more and more, it is not that others or society imposed on me that this kind suffocates, but self-suggestion and depression constantly " Crystallization " . I one complicated girl very, I feel self-humiliation very much externally, internal and also very conceited. Lively unusually in the middle of friend, but terribly cold and detached in the middle of stranger. To ignoring the person of me, I will curse in the heart, to the person bestowing small favours to me, but I am out of gratitude, and regard them as the gods. What can I say? Sum up to myself in a word it exactly: Vulgar! The special one is vulgar! Can not find some refined compositions in oneself on one's body, to this society, I see very realistically, so long as others give me enough money, I want except breaking the law, violate the thing of one's own conscience I will do. In other words, that is to say I especially have no principle to do things. Today's thing is always pushed to tomorrow and done, the lesson that can escape will always try hard to escape, the commitment made last minute, I can overthrow by oneself minute, disappointed in even desperate as to this not only oneself, there is my friend. I think I am that pool desperate stagnant water in the works of Mr. Wen Yiduo, can't evoke the ripples at all. University life for four year come silently, go silently, but I find, belong to own things a bit in time for four year these, just walk stepping on forefathers' No. ignorantly 舞蹈 .

I express gratitude to Professor Hu very much, he always dissects social reality for us, tell our university with a kind of tone of laughing at oneself, say we student of school, have lesson of him each time, I can feel ashamed, then make a goal quietly, firmly believe oneself can unquestionably be finished, but has not finished yet for one day, that heavy oath has been thrown beyond the highest heavens in the twinkling of an eye, another kind of abnormal amusement controlled me soon 芭蕾舞

I hate oneself very much really in fact, hate oneself to be disappointing, hate one's own incapability, but no matter how many times does it scold oneself, " I " Still " I " ,One degenerate I gradually, one withered I gradually.

Write here, and then considering my life, my future, I think I am exactly a milu, not that animal under second -level State protection of the hometown, but " milu of life " ,Any does not belong to one's own star light and characteristic. In fact before writing this gently, I have an idea, just suspend schooling to go to the other places to work as a temporary labourer in one year, find out about favor changes in temperature, manners and morals of the time come back reading behind the vicissitudes, I perhaps can want I at that time ripe a lot, perhaps not know more such intense darkness without light in my life 普通話課程.

Remember that there is a word like this, " God, while shutting a door for you, have opened another window for you too " ,I know the door which belonged to me has already been shut, that window is ruined too can't bear, dear readers, can you make a window and illuminate my dim soul for me 畫班 ?

"Ting, helps the mother to bring the umbrella. " At noon on Sunday, having just had a meal, mother said to me while tidying up the dining table. "OK! " As soon as I have answered, I go to the bathroom to take mother's small flower umbrella furniture.

Sunshine chink of branch outside room for summer, stock the high window of the bathroom completely, the one more mottled lets faint scribbling on the pure white ceramic tile very irregularly small and round. I have sought all over in every corner in the bathroom, have not seen an umbrella either. "Mother, there is no umbrella in the bathroom robin
. "

"Oh, forget, tell you whether I wash all umbrella, charge light ins and outs of clothes closet of sitting room upstairs in the dose. " Mother goes out of the kitchen, has wiped water on hand on the apron, then take down aprons. "Going up helps the mother to bring, mother goes to work lately. It should be careful to go to the stair. "

I open the door of lower floor of the clothes closet in the small sitting room, see that arranges the umbrella neatly and cleanly in bottom dose of the cupboard. I take out mother's small flower umbrella, have looked it over for a moment. Several blue and green small flowers have already taken off many colors the faint yellow umbrella. Not so beautiful as my umbrella.

"Mother, give, your old umbrella. " On the desk that I passed the umbrella by mother's body. "It is old of course, still can avoid the windscreen rain. I am still it that like very much. " Mother finishes saying, eat two " cold drugs " any more Capsule, drink water in the cup up at on gulp newsgroup.

"All right, obedient at home. " Mother looks at me kindly and gently, carry the musette bag on the arm with a smile, several steps step out the gate. "Mother, fine day, why take the umbrella? " I ask mother wondering. "It is supposed, there is thunder shower this afternooning of last night. This lets where there is precaution, there is no danger. " Just finish speaking, disappear among the crowds on the road findingmanito.

"The day in summer, the baby's face. " Very good, the weather changes very quickly. It was sunny just now, already been cloudy in an instant, the lightning accompanied by peals of thunder. In the twinkling of an eye, a storm has come. I stand in gate, see beans heavy raindrop bungle step in front of door, pedestrian of Luis all disappear quickly, the torrential rain is under the threatening by force of blast, weave a lot of thick coarse rain curtains obliquly. Mother will come off duty soon, fortunately mother is taking the umbrella, otherwise will drench with rain. Mother's cold has not been good yet. " where there is precaution, there is no danger " It is very good denis
!

Suddenly, one soul come in curtain of tain, does not hold up an umbrella, one small bag at head, Ah, that is mother. "Mum - -"I am shouting loudly heidi0428.

Mother rushes into the door, drench water, the wet picture drenched chicken all over. I run into the bathroom to fetch the dry towel quickly, pass mother. "Where is mother, your umbrella? " Mother takes over the towel, water wiping the face to at once. A wisp of wet long hair is stuck on her pale face closely, mother smoothes out it behind the ear gently with the finger. "Oh, the umbrella Lend Colleague. She Bringing Child. " Mother breathe heavily thick air, say intermittently. Then water trembling on one's body, enter the bathroom loves
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I have poured a cup of hot water, bring " cold drug " ,Strip down two capsules carefully, put in the palm gently. Mother comes out from the bathroom, comfort my head, sit on my stool around. Say: "Ting is very obedient. " I am busy with passing over cup and water. "Mother, take medicine, take care of your cold. "

I look at mother, the happy smile have been piled on her tired out pale face. I urge her: "Mother, take medicine quickly! " The tears spin in the eye socket under the Central Committee jackson
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Milk facial film

Put fresh milk of probably 30ML into the container, soak the paper of facial film. Apply the facial film paper which soaks the milk on the face. Lie on the sofa for 15- 20 minutes. Then take off the paper of following membrane, clean the face with the fresh water.

Function ¦A is whitened. Pay attention to using the fresh milk, can't use milk power.

Facial film of red wine

2 spoons of red wine 20ml, honey, a little mixing of pearl powder, scribble on the face, clean with the warm water about 5 minutes later.

Function ¦A is whitened.

Facial film of bean curd

Mash a bean curd, strain and do the moisture with the gauze. Add honey of 15g flour and 5g, stir evenly, scribble on the face, keep for 20 minutes, wash clean.

Function ¦A can make the skin white and transparent.

Facial film of bitter gourd

Refrigerate the bitter gourd for 15 minutes, then slice, stick it on the face. Wash 15 minutes later.

Function ¦A whitens, moistens skin.

Facial film of black tea

Appropriate amount of 2 soup spoons of black tea, a little of 2 soup spoons of brown sugar, flour, water. Fry black tea and brown sugar with water and boil it for a moment, cool to 37- 40 degrees. Add the flour to mix, scribble on the face, clean 15 minutes later.

Function ¦A makes the skin pale, moist.

Egg facial film

The preparation of this method is longer. Soak the egg in right amount of wine, seal for 28 days, take out. Every night just before going to bed, apply the surface with the egg white.

Function ¦A cares skin, whitens, reduces wrinkle.

Facial film of sponge gourd

The fresh sponge gourd is pressed into a juice, filter, add the spoonful flour, scribble in face 15 minutes - 20 minutes, then wash with the warm water.

Function ¦A keeps the skin delicate, whitens.

Water-melon facial film

Squeeze the juice from the water-melon, add the milk and flour, apply the even whole face, clean 20 minutes later, once -2 times every week.

Function ¦A can make blacker skin white and shrink thicker pore. This law tanned skin result to sunlight is better.

Make the membrane of beautiful flour by oneself superly

Material: First-class pearl powder, Radix Angelicae Dahuricae, hold back in vain, white Radix Aconiti Lateralis Preparata, compositions such as the stiff silkworm,etc. wear into the detailed powder.

Use: Fetch two grams, add the juice of the small cucumber, albumen and milk, a little is adjusted into pastel.

Paint making the facial film by oneself on the face, pay attention to it with lip week near the eyes. Make sure not to talk and laugh while using, after the facial film is done, clean carefully with the warm water. If there are spots that can be used on the face every day, desalinize the result to add very much. If only generally whiten and maintain, once for one week.

This is very gentle traditional Chinese medicine, suitable for any type of skin.

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